Nothing's changed.

I never really understood why they hated you so much.

I remember you used to come home drunk, and you would yell at everyone in sight. I remember that particular evening when dad slammed his fist on the table and threw a fork so hard on the floor when we were having dinner. I remember mom would take my hand and lead me upstairs whenever you wasn't being you. I also remember that time I excitedly ran to tell my dad you just broke the door handle again. I remember grandma were so angry at you because you refuse to sell the land when the offer was just too tempting to reject.

Since we moved out, dad never really speak of you, occasionally mum would tell me what she heard from aunt. I heard you stopped drinking. I heard you stopped yelling. You were so angry, I was just too afraid to talk to you.

What's changed since?

Why did grandaunt still ask dad if uncle Alfred had forgiven you?, why did grandaunt and still hope that uncle Alfred would attend your funeral? Why did grandma try to stop everyone from going to your funeral?

Why does aunt still dress like a whore to your funeral? Why does aunt still lament about the past when you're already in the casket? Why did dad still go to your funeral and help you with all the arrangements?

What's changed since?

Why do we still weep when we watch the machine slowly pull you into the chamber? Why do we still practice all the rituals to send you away?

What's changed since?

Nothing.

It had been seven days since you left.

Nothing has changed

Grand uncle passed away on 18th July 2007

Give and Take 1 : 1

How many bees does it take to fill a jar with honey? Exactly how many strands of hair would fall on our shoulder when we think? Exactly how many grains of sand does it take to make a piece of glass? And just exactly how much do I have to give so none of us would ever have to feel any less?

I do not know what I could give you that you might need, but I feel the need to give you, even though you didn't ask because it is necessary, and because I know giving it would fuel our friendship. I do not want anything in return, although I have taken so much, and yet I wish I would stop taking, so I could stop giving. I do not want anything, when there is something that I must want. All I want is, us, together, at the end of the night, to be able to talk and laugh before we finish our day, and wake up in the morning, thinking that we are going to have the same fun again at night. It makes day at work goes past much quicker.

Ode To Rottenpuss

Dear lady in the office,
I just wanna scream puh-lease.

First time I thought I saw a chie babe,
Nearer I look, make me forget how to masturbate.

Your pussy smells so bad,
I can smell it on my desk.

It smelled like fish rotten,
I'm sure it'd attract lots of kittens.

Like the hokkiens sometimes say ka-na-sai,
Your face make me wanna go lau-sai.

Please don't come any closer,
I feel like my eyes gonna get ulser.

Your boyfriend must have bad luck,
Dating you would be so jiak-lak.

I think I better stop,
Before my shit really plop.

楊乃文 :: 女爵

01. 女爵
02. 我離開我自己
03. 分開
04. 懂還是不懂
05. 今天清晨
06. 微笑著揮手
07. 之前
08. 電視機
09. 沙塵暴
10. 繼續
11. Be In Love + Hidden Track：女爵 (鬼魅版)

7 年前﹐ 一個人的楊乃文冷酷的進入樂壇﹐用他的Silence﹐對喜歡她的音樂的人說"我就是吃定你"。 一出道就被列為實力派女歌手的楊乃文﹐也拿來跟王菲比較。 也許是她那長沒表情的臉﹐也許是那一種很不討好的個性﹐又或者是因為在音樂方面兩個人都是玩領類的。 無論如何﹐ 像王菲還是不像﹐楊乃文她是有勢力的。 他的出現給了中文樂壇另外一種的新鮮感﹐也讓我們聽到了在中文樂壇少見的英式搖滾。

7 年後﹐沒想到過了6個月後才發現楊乃文她重出樂壇推出了他的全新專輯 <<女爵>>。

隔了5年的楊乃文以成熟許多﹐依然冷酷的她﹐臉上卻帶有無奈的痕跡。她消失的5年裡面跑到那裡去了?

主打女爵叫人聽了無奈﹐楊乃文的聲音帶有一種逼近的力量﹐唱出來的歌讓人聽了很有感觸﹐歌曲意境也很傷感﹐開始的旋律緩慢到復歌無奈的爆發都是她五年裡面拿捏出來的。

雖然這張專輯並沒有讓人跌破眼鏡的突破﹐楊乃文﹐不管是在唱法還是表達個的意思都明顯進步了很多。已經很久沒有那麼被感動過了。

她﹐並沒有可愛的臉﹐她﹐也沒有性感火辣的個性﹐ 就因此唱片也賣少了幾張。可是她的音樂就是她最真實的一面。

FU Sample 1

Brunei Trip and the very Unfortunate Event

Jeff is going back to Melbourne via Sydney with Royal Brunei, so we took a road trip to Brunei to send Jeff off. Here's the pictorial summary of our rather miserable road trip.

The Backup Plan.

You know those little power generator-cum-back up thingy on most buildings, just in case of power blackouts, people don't panic? Even it's just an emergency light, it's comforting to be able to see your way out, or at least it keeps you hangin' in there, especially at night. I remembered last time, the power was cut off sometime during the night in the architecture building. There was no back up power, no back up exit lights, and the swipe card wouldn't work, and no one could get out of the building. It was late night, late, probably 2 or 3 in the morning, and this Korean girl starts to panic and cried because it was dark, and she couldn't see her way down the steps. Then you know what, people complained, why had they not prepared an emergency storage, you know, maybe nobody ever bothered to take care of it. Those thing aren't really that important, you know, because its not like we have black outs on a daily basis right, so people took it for granted. If there had blackouts and the generator runs smoothly, it'd be like, you know, you'd feel like "wow, this little thing is amazing". When it's all over, you kinda really just forget about it and get on with their life like nothing happened because it's, you know, generator, is just a generator, it's not meant to be appreciated. And until the next time the blackout happens, and had the generator stop working, people panic and go "omg, you piece of crap, where are you when I needed you the most. Fucking piece of shit", you know, just because people never bothered to get it serviced, have it looked at from time to time. They pretty much expect them to work perfectly during cutoffs.

Yah, that's what people do. They fucking love having backups around, you know, just because they find the idea of it comforting, to make them feel good, or at least there's always something to fall on. But you know, you just don't pay for that thing and expect it to work in every occasion. Sometimes it breaks, and you've got to fix it. If you have bothered to give it a constant service, it 'd probably run sweet for you, but then, it's never a promise. It's just back up anyway.