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Artist: White Rose Movement
Album: Kick
Album Length: 49m33s
Release Date: 06 March 2006
Country: London, England, United Kingdom

Band Members
Finn Vine (vocals)
Jasper Milton (guitar)
Owen Dyke (bass)
Taxxi (keys)
Edward Harper (drums)

Want your hair to do that flippy thing like the guy from the band could do, probably these guys from White Rose Movement could give some advice. No, definitely not talking about Emo. White Rose Movement are heirs to the exhiliriating electroclash movement, which means that it's all about being retro, stylish and essentially - dancing. and this, of course brought me to their arty hairstyles that varies from spiky haired in kung-fu boots doing "the robot" dance to the Fischerspooner, to the likes of flippy front curtains of hairs like Bandon Flowers and the guy from Bravery.

Almost every track on Kick plays up a handful of retro electro-80's tropes and they deserve a credit for not trying to mask their frequent hero-worshipping to Depech Mode and Joy Division. The title track, "Kick" gets things off to a fine start, seductively merging distorted guitars with some deliciously dark synth while the femm vocals of Finn Vine produces an attitude with his constant yelps and screams. "Girls In The Back" would probably get your flippy hair thing going on and you legs jiggling on the dance floor with the trance breakdown and the sing-along chorus. The album peaks at third track, "Love Is A Number", which is their most applaused single out of the album. Even Bloc Party's Kele wish he'd written this song. The cohesion of electronica and effortless guitar buzzes with heavily trampled rhytm, the outright catchiness and the vocal punch is what this song is all about, and it seemed everything falls in the right place for it to work. "Alsatian" is their hard-rcok approach to their musical styles, relying on piling vocal effects and building guitar riffs until reaching the chorus. "London's Mine" is viperous, speeding and definitely spinning while "Idiot Drugs" lives up to what the title implies: totally dumb and trashy, makes you spin into nowhere and eventually collaps on the dance floor. "Speed" gives another high to the album with it's edgy hooks and the trance breakdown where everything cut out except the electronic drums. "Cruella" closes the album sounding too much like the remixed version of Bloc Party's "She's Hearing Voices" on the beginning with the measured drummings and the dub-dub-dub chanting.

Kick is definitly not original in every way, yes; because New Wave or electroclash is only is going to get as far as this musically, it's all been-there-done-that. Listen to Depeche Mode or Joy Division, how about the Killers and The Bravery - yeah they all sound pretty similar. However, Kick came out with strenghts of it's own conviction that contains some remarkable songs; nicely executed for a debut that blends in different genres of music, while remains true to their musical style. This album is highly infectious, and it need a surround sound speaker to make it come full cicle, well actually my Sennheiser HD212Pro works just fine - sending jolts to my senses while it's pounding rentlessly to my ears.

And this is exactly where I need to get back to my comment about the hair-do thingy I mentioned earlier. The thing about electroclash is that Style always always comes first than Content. Having said that clear, I would like so totally give White Rose Movement a big fucking A+ to their hair-dos but the content of the album...er..nay probably not; that is what you find on first listen is probably as much as you're going to find at all after repeated listen, but then the first time round would offer enough pleasure and experience to make you want to listen more. I mean.. If they spend half as much writing music and perfecting it than they do on their hair style, this album would be totally awesome.

Beaker's Verdict: A-

Artist: The Kooks
Album: Inside In/Inside Out
Producer: Tony Hoffer
Album Length: 40m51s
Release Date: 23 January 2006
Country: Brighton, United Kingdom

Band Members
Luke Pritchard – lead vocals, rhythm guitar
Hugh Harris – lead guitar
Max Rafferty – bass guitar
Paul Garred – drums, percussion

It all seemed that the British Invasion 2 that begun last year has slowly died down in 2006, not many bands, if any has emerged successuflly from the scene to make an impact. The Brighton based lads, The Kooks is probably one of the best British act that has came out this year with their raunchy debut Inside In/Inside Out suggesting no intention to continue the invasion influx, if only. The Kooks' style isn't too hard to pin point, unlike any recent indie brits, The Kooks' music are somewhere between bouncy Britpop and acoustic driven anthems, somewhere between raw and polished and somewhere between pop and indie.

Album opener, "Seaside" is an acoustic mid-tempo love song that shows the crisp clear vocals of lead singer, and the main selling point of the album- their accent. Stand out tracks such as "See The World", first single "Eddie's Gun" and "You Don't Love Me" crests on waves of fizzy guitar pop and heavy drum beats, that became the moments that brands The Kook's musical style. Mellower tracks like "OOh La" and "Naive" both offer bouyant and catch singalong chorus that no one could possibly hate.

Where there is a new band, there will be comparison made. The Kooks music probably resembles back to Razorlight's 2002 debut Up All Night. Songs like "Eddie's Gun" bristle with the dynamism of Supergrass. Inside In/Inside Out is probably a mixture of what their peers have done, and remastered, AND this is where this album came in great, but at the same time it became a main weakness for the band. And one thing that deducts the rating for this album is that it doesn't not have a dynamic flow between tracks; song after song, there is no certain direction where it's going making the album flat, and loses it's charm. Nevertheless, their exuberant youth and adolecent has made Inside In/Inside Out an easily accessible album; meaning it reaches out to public but at the same time remains personal. It's like a blog.

Essential Listen: See The World, Ooh La, You Don't Love Me, She Moves In Her Own Way, Naive

Beaker's Verdict: A-

Goal!

Movies about basketball has been made, movies about baseball has been made, movies about tennis has been made, hell movies about disabled rugby has been made, just every single sports has been turned into big screen, well, other than Football. I mean a decent one, though Bend It Like Beckham seemed okay. It's not hard to see why, almost 1 million Americans tune in to watch Superbowl in the United States, and people who watch soccer? Almost 20 million people watch the English Premier League every Saturday. Point is, to make a football film is like making a christian film because there will be a lot of pressure from football fans world-wide. If the movie is bad, it is likely that the director wouldn't direct another movie anymore. If the movie is great, everyone is happy.

Goal! is a decent movie about football. Fact, period. It's about this young kid, Santiago Munez (Kuno Becker), who is an illegal immirgrant in The States from Mexico. He is poor and he loves football and would play it every chance he gets. So, well while he was kicking some ball, he was spotted by an ex-Newcastle United scout, Glen Foy (Stephen Dillane) who helped him to land a trial chance with Newcastle United. With great enthusiasts, he flew to England to pursue his dreams. From, there he made it to the reserve team, and due to his outstanding skills, Newcastle Manager Erik Dornhelm (Marcel Iures) put him to play with the main team, against Chelsea and Liverpool in the English Premier League. Then he scored a winning goal for Newcastle, and his dream came true.

There are several cliche storyline like a disapproving father, and a supportive grandmother that cancel each other out, and having asthma, and some twisted love part, this movie is good in its own way. It's a pop movie, it is relatively face paced, there isn't a single dull moment in the movie. Now the surprising thing about this movie is that it is really really CONVINCING. Goal! actually gets the nod from FIFA before the filming starts and what's really surprising thing is, in one of the scences, the stars of Real Madrid - David Beckham, Raul and Zidane actually appears in the movie, like for real and you get glimpses of Chelsea stars like Lampard and Terry, Liverpool stars like Gerrard and Crouch. Shearer also made several appearences in the movie. Isn't that a real treat or what. Now the thing is that the directors actually get the permission to film in location at the stadium when the Chelsea and Liverpool match is going on. After the match, the actors would run around in the field, and the real footballers would run around in the background to reenact a real match. This is just great.

Nuff said, go and watch Goal! while the football fever high and hot. Goal! 2 is currently in post-production stage and is due release some time this year. In Goal! 2, Santiago Munez went from Newcastle to Real Madrid. Isn't that worth a wait?

Directed by Danny Cannon

Tagline: Every Dream Has A Beginning

Goal! Trailer

David Beckham scene, boy he can't act

ENG-GE-RAND!

Ok, so I just finished watching the World Cup match between Engrand and Ecuador, and I am truly inspired to write this piece of bullshit despite the fact that I am really sleepy. Well anyway, the match kicks off at 3a.m. in the fucking morning, and of course, bearing in mind that this might just be Engrand's last match, I had to watch it. NO MATTER WHAT. And so I dragged my friend, Kyle to go with me to this bar, The Palace for World Cup entusiasts-who-doesn't-have-SKY-at-home, and Kyle dragged another female friend of his, who is trully the most annoying thing I have ever met in the mist of uncertanties. I am talking about Engrand. So there was only like 15 people in the bar, 6 of which were wearing Engrand's jersey and had Engrand flag painted on their face. Other's were Asian like me, and other other are those who have no fucking clue how important this match is - which is my friend and his annoying friend.

Well, enough of that, before 60 minutes, I was nervous as shit, I bite my nails and it bleeds and I bite and it bleeds more. I am that fucking nervous. Engrand is worrying the shit out of me. Well it's not just me. Other supporters were making sounds like "arrrgghhhh", "ohh my goddd", "what the fuck". Well just about anything to express their worries and displacement. Well that's not my point. Point is, after this match, I am reminded of several very important facts.

Reminder 1. Rooney reminds us why we all love him in the first place. Despite his injury last May, Rooney actuall performed well in this match. His glory youth, and his ever-so-enthusiastic attitude is why we all love him. Although he have not generated any goals for Engrand, his performance was worth giving praise, and he is so fucking young, in no time he will be the best footballer ever lived. Maybe I am biased but who gives a fuck cuz Ova' Da Moon, We've Got The Roooon

Reminder 2. Beckham reminds us why we shouldn't hate him. Despite his poor leadership and early misjudgement and low accuracy, his fucking amazing pivotal goal for Engrand is how he redeemed himself.

Reminder 3. Engrand reminds me the reason it's so fucking cool to be their fan. Well Engrand never ceases to surprise anyone. Winning or losing, it will be a bg fucking surprise. Watching Engrand play is like waiting to be burnt alive. It's like so totally hot. I don't know what I'm saying but I am just sayin' it because I am kinda in a happy mood right now, which is highly unusual, because I was never happy. Hmmm..

Reminder 4. Not exactly a reminder but after this match, I have the utmost respect for Chelsea leader John Terry, and keeper Paul Robinson, thanks to the influence of Dwight, I find myself slowly, slowly fancy Chelsea. Please,don't judge me.

Keane - Under The Iron Sea [2006]

Artist: Keane
Album: Under The Iron Sea
Producer: Andy Green
Album Length: 50m31s
Release Date: 16 June 2006 Worldwide
Country: Battle, United Kingdom

Band Members:
Thomas Chaplin (vocals)
Tim Rice-Oxley (piano, keyboards, bass),
Richard Hughes (drums)
Dominic Scott (guitar, 1997-2002)

After two years and over 5 million copies of Hopes and Fears sold world wide, Keane is back with their sophomore release, Under The Iron Sea, which unfortunately suffered the "Second Album Syndrome". Keane said, “we were writing, singing and performing with a drive, intensity and fury that is almost unrecognisable from our previous music”, which is not entirely true. Under The Iron Sea is a close and improved replica of Hopes and Fears, in which that Keane is more confident, more assuring in what they're doing.

"Atlantic" opens the record in dark and dramatic fashion, painted in moody electronic hues, wants to be bitter, wants to be mysterious, wants to be dark and brooding. I don't think so. It is painfully blatant and failed as an introduction to Under The Iron Sea, however it does convey what they are trying to do with the record, dark and mysterious, like the deep iron sea. Second track, "Is It Any Wonder" is lashed with guitar that sounds like U2 to a certain degree, with a rather infectious chorus.

The almost exact sound from Hopes and Fears is fairly obvious in "Nothing In My Way", heavy with piano and infectious chorus, guarantee to sweep you like a tidal wave. "Leaving So Soon" and "Crystal Ball" is probably the catchiest, the popest singles throughout the whole album with catchy and energetic chorus that makes you go toe-tapping and sing along. Worth mentioning as well is the vesratility of Tom Chaplin's vocal when handling the song "Leaving So Soon". "Hamburg Song" is mellow and beautiful and mesmerizing, a hidden gem in the album. In general, the arrangement and the choice of songs are pretty consistent without any surprise, but yet each track is enjoyable.

Having said all these, Under The Iron Sea is neither good or bad, in fact it is impossible for anyone to hate this album because it is surprisingly pleasant. The album is sophisticatedly arranged and produced with lots of piano, lots of measured drumming, lots of portentous clichés and earnest singing. Nothing ground-breaking as being speculated before the album was released, neither it is bad because they have more or less improved in their comfort zone. 

Beaker's Verdict: B+

Built To Spill - You In Reverse [2006]

Magic Spell

Artist: Built To Spill
Album: You In Reverse
Producer: Doug Martsch & Steve Lobdell
Album Length: 54m24s
Release Date: 11 April 2006
Country: United States of America


Doug Martsch (guitar, vocals)
Brett Netson (bass, guitar)
Ralf Youtz (drums)
Andy Capps (drums)
James Bertram (bass)
Dave Schneider (drums)
Peter Lansdowne (drums)
Scott Plouf (drums)
Sam Coomes (keyboard)

Formed back in 1992, Built To Spill is an American art-rockers lead by Doug Martsch and over the 13 years period of their career, they have released 6 studio album. Back in 2001 when they released Ancient Melodies of The Future, it became a big disappointment. Each track seemed blatant, and mechanical. Something wasn't right and it was confusing, for the band and the listener. Then in 2002 when Martsch released his own solo work, Now You Know, it went straight to the trash bin. And after five years of experimenting, stumbling around and contemplating, Martsch and his crew are back in perfect shape and it's perhaps one of their finest album to date, You in Reverse.

Built to Spill's earliest intention were to be a cast of musicians to serve as a reliable platform for Doug Martsch's brilliant song writing. However, in this album, it's no longer Doug Martsch's show. You in Reverse is a true collaborative effort, which each member contributing equally, creating a rather organic sound that casts off the usual meticulous guitar and studio polish in pursue of a more rugged, less refined and more spontaneous music that almost sounds like a live recording.

The album begin with the spectacular “Goin’ Against Your Mind” kicks off with the drum-propelled beats that gallops past the eight minute mark, delivered intuitively and effortlessly, welcomes the listener with a steady and driving rhythm, that kicks open the door and lay out the path for songs to follow. Second track, “Traces” is a spooky mid-tempo follow up to album opener with strong layering of brilliant guitar styling and Martsch’s warm blanket voice. “Conventional Wisdom” marks the point where You in Reverse starts to heat up. From it’s slick and dirty opening riff to it’s explosive guitar hook, “Conventional Wisdom” conveys an exuberance that graced and flourished this album. In contrast with their trademark layering of guitars, “Gone” offers a simple guitar chords that slowly builds up to a crescendo, then descends to a spooky sounding reggae beat, courtesy of Sam Coomes. The album finally peaks with Mess With Time, a fierce opening guitar that reverberate alongside Marstch’s voice that builds up the atmosphere for a mere three minutes before blasting into the shuffling ska jam session. You In Reverse end on a high notch with “The Wait” with country style accompanied by reversed guitar and outer space sounds. The last two minutes of melodic jamming is the most memorable, almost like an encore to their concert.

You In Reverse might just be one of my favourite records this year and perhaps one of the strongest non-mainstream album you’ll find this year. Five year in the making, after five years of contemplating and experimenting, You In Reverse delivers interesting and invigorating sounds that will haunt the listeners. From opening to the end, You In Reverse is skilfully produced and the sounds are flawlessly executed. Even after repeated listening, this album has not lost the surprise and the joy of first listen, and in fact this album will continue to grow on the listener. It’s almost like the difference between mass produced cookies and home-make cookies. Home made cookies always tasted better.

Beaker's Verdict: A+

Sonic Youth - Rather Ripped [2006]

Rather Nice

Artist: Sonic Youth
Album: Rather Ripped
Album Length: 51m53s (11 Tracks
Release Date: 13 June 2006
Country: United States of America

Sonic Youth has been around since the early eighties, and have released tons of great records from punk to hardcore to post-hardcore to new wave to alternative rock, whatever you want to call it, Sonic Youth is there to answer it and their latest studio album Rather Ripped is their most subtle and most mature record to date. Rather Ripped resembles 2004’s brilliant Sonic Nurse sound, sophisticated and elegant, smothered with 2002’s explosive rock-arena style in Murray Street. Having said that, Rather Ripped is as good as 1984’s Daydream Nation, only mellower, more subtle and more refined.

Opening track Reena is a trademark Sonic sound, quietly blasts through the entire track with multi layering of guitar and subtle chords change. This is a great opener to Rather Ripped, as it introduces sound that are so familiar but yet new that every Sonic fans would appreciate. “Incinerate” is yet another subtle track that shows their brilliant musicianship handling the instruments, layering them to make it sound ever so beautiful. “Rats” has and intriguing jazz vibe to it, blended with the heavy bass and the raw guitar sound, this song is a nice change to the previous songs in this album. “Turquoise Boy” is one of the main highlight in this album; with Kim Gordon’s yeaning vocals this song starts off with low-key Glen-Branca’s sophisticated guitar breakdowns before returning to a quick burst of distorted clamour that Sonic Youth is best known for. This album peaks with “Pink Stream”, which is probably the best track out of the album, caries a solid testament of their ability in layering the guitars and drums to create this intricate piece of solid 5 minute jams that resonance through the ear before the vocals kick in.

Every few years Sonic Youth throws out a record, that’s part of the deal in their contract with Greffen Records and having one last album before the contract ends, Rather Ripped was speculated to have made just to finish up with Griffen. Whichever the case was, Rather Ripped certainly have become one of their best record ever in their catalogue. Now Rather Ripped might not have the social impact of Daydream Nation or Murray Street, it carries a rather personal and intimate statement of Sonic Youth. Rather Ripped is a graceful, elegant way to end the story. It seems to almost complete a circle, of little bit of something they have done. It’s an instant classic.

Beaker's Verdict: A+

iPod Questionaire

Random iPod Questionaire

My friend Kyke discovered a cool questionaire, where you answer each question with the next song title that plays with your iPod on shuffle. (People with no iPod culd do it with their media players set on shuffle, but it's so much better with an iPod.

How does the world see you? The poineers - Bloc Party (I don't think so......)

Will I have a happy life? Questions - Degree Absolute (Probably right, questions, questions....)

What do my friends really think of me? Wake Up - The Living End (Really?)

Do people secretly lust after me? Unleash The Fury - The Feelers (I have no idea.)

How can I make myself happy? Murder That Sound - The Infadels (I think "that sound" refers to my aunt)

What should I do with my life? Sleep - Copeland (Probably)

Will I ever have children? Say Hello To The Angels - Interpol

What is some good advice for me? Spectacular Little Death - Motocade

How will I be remembered? The Funeral - Band of Horses (-.-" This is so weird)

What is my signature dancing song? Bigmouth Strikes Again - The Smiths

What do I think my current theme song is? Cowboys and Engines - The Boxer Rebellion

What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Coffee and TV - Blur

What song will play at my funeral? Your Blood - Destroyer (seemed apropriate)

What song will play at my wedding? Jogging Gorgeous Summer -Islands

What type of women do you like? Oh Stacey (Look What You've Done) - The Zutons

What is my day going to be like? You Have Killed Me - Morissey

What will be the reason for my break-up? Lighting Strikes Twice - Saint Etienne (err..)

What will be the first word my son is going to say? Wake Up - Arcade Fire

What am I going to say to my parents next time I see them? Teen Angst - M83 (definitely, though I'm way past teen)

What should I say to Bush? Grandmother Wolf - Pretty Girls Make Grave

What will happen tomorrow? Like Eating Glass - Bloc Party

What will happen to my future? Low - Coldplay (nt good)

What does my friends want from me? Right on Time - Red Hot Chili Peppers (that's very true)

What does me family expects of me? Tyrant - The Bravery

What does my girlfriend/boy friend expects of me? Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana

What does my room looks like? Deborah Carne - White Rose Movement (who the hell?)

The song I am going to hate after 5 years? Andvari - Sigur Ros

The song I will sing at American Idol final - I Have Forgiven Jesus - Morrissey

Random Interest

Favourite Movie Lines

How many lives do we live? How many times do we die? They say we all lose 21 grams... at the exact moment of our death. Everyone. And how much fits into 21 grams? How much is lost? When do we lose 21 grams? How much goes with them? How much is gained? How much is gained? Twenty-one grams. The weight of a stack of five nickels. The weight of a hummingbird. A chocolate bar. How much did 21 grams weight?

-Tagline from 21 Grams

If you can't fix it, then you've got to stand it.
-Ennis Del Mar, Brokeback Mountain

It's the sense of touch. In any real city, you walk, you know? You brush past people, people bump into you. In L.A., nobody touches you. We're always behind this metal and glass. I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something.
Det. Graham Waters, Crash

You know that point in your life when you realize that the house you grew up in isn’t really your home anymore…all of the sudden even though you have some place to put your shit, that idea of home is gone…or maybe its like this rite of passage…you will never have that feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, for your kids, for the family you start, it’s like a cycle or something…maybe that’s what family really is…a group of people that miss the same imaginary place…
Andrew Largeman, Garden State

Memory can change the shape of a room; it can change the color of a car. And memories can be distorted. They're just an interpretation, they're not a record, and they're irrelevant if you have the facts.
Leonard Shelby, Momento

Beneath this mask there is more than flesh. Beneath this mask there is an idea, Mr. Creedy, and ideas are bulletproof.

But if you're looking for the guilty, you need only look into a mirror.
V, V For Vendetta

Kim Jong Il: And now you see: da new world is inebidable!
Lisa: It's what?
Kim Jong Il: Ineb - inebidable.
Lisa: One more time...
Kim Jong Il: Inebidable!! Tings awr inebedably going to change! God dammit, open your fuckin' eaws!
Team America World Police


Check out John Frusciante and Flea, perfect combination of bass & Guitar in Charlie



Another one, John Frusciante & Flea Instrumental: Live at Slane Castle

I Do Give a Damn Shit

I am so sick of people asking me “Hey, what have you been up to?” “Hey, you got a job yet?” “So you gonna come back next semester?” I mean what the fuck, can’t they be more original and come up with something new other than asking the same old bloody question fucking over and over again. I hated it, man seriously and if any of you out there who happened to read my blog, please I plead the fifth and I beg the shit out of you guys not to ask me this bloody question again the next time you guys see me, or I will shove my fist up your fucking ass I swear to god. The thing is I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT TO DO WITH MY FUCKING LIFE; I might as well just die. So, until I figured out what I want to do with my pathetic life, just leave me the fuck alone and stop asking the fucking questions. Once is enough and once is just fucking enough. I will tell when I want to tell and I will fucking say it out loud if I figured it out, unless if I decided to kill myself, you guys will probably get a letter instead of hearing me say out loud. I am messed up right now and I am having a very very very hard time to remain calm, and I have a very very very hard time dealing my own demons, so until then, ask me anything other that these questions. Ask me did my bitch aunt say anything to me last night, ask me about Rooney, ask me about which team I support for world cup, ask me to fuck you, ask me if I am gay, ask me if I like vagina, ask me if I commit suicide, how’d I do it, or you can tell me a fucking story. Anything, anything, anything other than my fucking future.

Here are some fucking guidelines what NOTto ask me (be smart, don’t ask anything similar):

1.What are you up to these days, BRO? Or equivalent (ask, “Hey, what’s up” instead)
2.Are you looking for a job or are you gonna come back next year? Or equivalent
3.Have you found a job yet? Or equivalent
4.Are you going to come back at all? Or equivalent
5.What kind of job are you thinking of? Or equivalent
6.Do you want to work in, like an architecture firm or you want to do something else, BRO? Or equivalent
7.Are you going to finish BArch at all, BRO? or equivalent

And bloody last but not fucking least (gosh, that rhymes), a BIG FUCKING NO NO is – “WHY DON’T YOU FINISH BARCH, BRO I MEAN IT’S JUST ANOTHER TWO YEARS” -That is not even a fucking question but trust me, this is the most FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTION FAQ FYI . If I hear anyone ask me that, I will fucking shove not my fist, but my fucking leg up your sorry ass and I KID YOU NOT. Please guys; just be more sensitive to how I feel. It felt stink alright, and those bloody questions makes me feel like a piece of shit. If there is nothing to talk about, then just let it be awkward, don’t force to bring out a topic by repeating a conversation we already have gone through zillions of time. That is just so fucking last year.

Thread is not directed at anybody in particular at the time it is being written, but if you ask me any of the questions listed above in the future after having read this post, you might as well just go to language school. Ouch.

GOOOO ENGLAND!!

GOOOOOOOOO ROOOOOOONEY!!



GOOOOOOOOO GERRRRRARD!!!

......BECKHAM WHO????

Almost There

Sandy: You don't feel warm.

Seth: How about cold and clammy?

Ryan: Maybe you've got the Summer flu.

Seth: Yeah, it's November, but it's possible.

Ryan: Maybe you need some Anna-biotics..


The O.C. Season 1 Episode 12 - The Secret

Untitled 2

You don't from the wet sand, you don't form at all.....You don't form in the wet sand......I DO..........YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Up until I was 17, I have never cried, I mean not including when I was an infant. I did not cry when my grandfather died, I did not cry when I cut my leg, I did not cry when I burnt my fingers, and I did not cry when I bleed. It was as if nothing gets to me. Life was simple back then, and I was happy back then. I did not cry not because I feel the need to supress myself so others wouldn't think I am wuss. I did not cry because I don't feel there is a need to cry because it is as it is.

But everything seemed different after 17, after I left and came to New Zealand.

I cry and I cry and I cry.

I cried at the airport after I waved my parents goodbye, I cried when I father was mad at me for crashing his car, I cried after I read a book, I cried after I watched a movie, I cried after I watched a TV show, I cried in the bathroom when I took crap, I cried in the studio when I am stucked, I cried in the morning when I wake up, I cried in the afternoon when the depression kicks in, I cried at night when I feel lonely and I cried in the middle of the night when I fear of uncertainties. I cried for no certain reasons.

I cry and I cry and I cry.

The psychologist I used to see once told me "You are a brave young man because you did not hide your feelings." That was after I broke down sobbing like a helpless SOB telling him about my dramatic life story. The comment ain't making me feel better, sorry. I knew that I am like seriously depressed and I knew that it's just a matter of time before I snap and honestly I cannot wait for that day to arrive.

Because it will be the day I stop crying and everyone who loved me starts crying.



And, thanks Dw, you've been the best thing that've happened to me since this year. See you when I see you again.

People fuck you up as much as you fuck of yourself up and it all came down to one thing, take the opportunity to fuck things up yourself before anyone fucks you up because at the end of the day, everything will be fucked. Who is going to give a shit anyway.

..50 ramdom things.

1. My roommate once: took a crap on my bed. Kidding. Never had a roommate before.

2. Never in my life have I: killed someone?

3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile: sorry can't tell

4. High School was: awesome.

5. When I'm nervous: I bite my nails.

6. The last time I cried was: Tuesday morning because I felt depressed.

7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be: nobody. I am a loner

9. My hair: is black and short.

10. When I was 6: I asked my mum to have my name changed

12. When I turn my head left, I see: a chick looking at a cross-section diagram of a vagina holy shit.

13. I should be: looking for job

14. When I look down I see: my erm..crotch?

15. The craziest recent event was: the fact that my mate Norman could infact look like a hard-core emo, if he wants to. I swear to god it's scary to think about it, he looked like a freak. I mean like omg..

16. If I were a character on Friends I'd be: Ross

17. By this time next year: I will probably be buried six feet underground.

18. My favorite Aunt is: nobody. They are the most controlling and demanding bunch of bitches that I have ever met in my entire fucking life, like totally suffocating me.

19. I have a hard time understanding: bun-di-di-a-doo-doo-bum-bum. Got it? bun-di-di-a-doo-doo-bum-bum..got it???. bun-di-di-a-doo-doo-bum-bum. Nevermind

20. One time at a family gathering: I got so disgusted and narked at some of my family members that I actually threw up on my bowl. And man, that was the greatest thing ever, I had the excuse to leave.

21. You know I "like" you if: you like me.

22. If I won an award, the first person (people) i would thank: Beaker.

23. Take my advice: go eat glass.

24. My ideal breakfast is: Scrambled eggs, with white bread and a cup of coffee with a cigarrette.

25. If you visit my hometown: make sure your return ticket is set on the next day, early morning.

26. Where do you plan to visit anytime soon: an empty apartment.

27. If you spend the night at my house: you will never want to come again.

29. The world could do without: my aunts.Ouch!

30. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: live with my aunt. Ouch ouch!

31. Most recent thing you've bought yourself: Peanuts M&Ms. gosh don't you love them.

32. Something someone else bought for you: A Borders gift card from mate Jurian.

33. My favorite blonde is: Reese Witherspoon

35. It was never a good idea to: do something in the studio, thinking no one is watching you. You are so wrong.

36. The last time I was high: I passed out in my friend's backyard. They found me the next morning.

37. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds: is snakes. It'd be so weird.

38. I should have been: more cautious. I still get lost in your eyes sometimes. Burrr.. that's like the lamest thing ever.

39. Once, at a bar: some random guy grabbed my crotch, and hence become my best mate now. ironic.

40. Last night: I watched CSI:NY's last two episodes and I feel sorry for Aiden deep down because she was killed by DJ Pratt. I feel so sad it's not even funny.

41. There's this girl I know who: who is the most helpless bitch I ever met, and gosh she is ever man's worst nightmare. She have a real fucked up face structure FYI.

42: I dont know: how to get closer to you. Hmm...

43. A better name for me would be: Harrow? Everyone seemed to say that to me these days.

44. If I ever go back to school I: will have a little wank and a little cry.

45: It's funny how: those guys in L5 could be so gay. I mean like, totally.

46. Two days ago: I was at uni, and Norman said "F for FAIL" at some of the design works that he was looking at. Triple OUCH!

47. I think she/he hates me because: I am better, obviously, I mean like duh..

48: In retrospect: leaving uni was such a bad idea.

49: And by the way: I think that people architecture school is really cool, not the school itself though.

50: Last but not least: All wrongs reserved.

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Matthew MacFadyen.