So Much for the Cultural Diversity.....

Well yeah, I dont know why and I don't know when it started but the issue with "racism" has been a huge talk around lately... to me at least.

Many people had always tought that this is a so-not-the-coffee-table-topic issue that no one should be talking about it openly. But then I couldnt help bubt to think about Jules and Soo's comment on racism, which was rather funny of course.

So of course, in cities where "Cultural Diversity" counts, there will always be racism of some sort. There, beginning of this semester, there was these ladies from the mediation department of the already-fucked-up-UoA came and gave us a talk on Racism. What she said made no sense to ME. If she wasnt introduced as a mediator by Prof. Errol, I would've thought she was making a racist remark on other ethnicity based on what she talked about.

Duh, then there was the good old Welly, I was talking to a high school mate at one of the bars at the Uni.

Cameron: How many of you are here?

Me: um 7 including me, why?

Cameron: No offense, all asians?

Me: yea..

Cameron: Did you get stares?

Me: Kinda..something wrong?

Cameron: Dude, you'll never find 7 asians walking down the street in Welly, at least not that I have noticed

Me: Yeah, I noticed.

Na, not to say Cameron is a racist, in fact, he's the most unracist guy that I've met.

Then just last night, I was talking to Soo about her bad Taxi experience,

Soo: Hey Nigel, do you think Taxi drivers are rude? I mean like from your experience

Me: (thinks)um .. Ive had some good drivers and some with attitudes, why?

Soo: Ok, so the other night I had to take a taxi home, I called for a cab and I was late about 5 mins, and the Taxi driver was mad at me. And then I dont have any cash on me so I had to ask the taxi driver to drop me off at one of the ATM so I can get cash out, when he couldve stopped right at the ATM, he stop meters aways just to make me walk, then when I got home, it says 6 dollars on the meters, so I paid him 10 dollars but he did not gave me back my 4 dollars change, so I asked for it but he said that the rate has gone up...(xxXXxxx) ... and I was like what the hell.
Me: What race is he?

Soo: (Laughs) Indian.

Me: Though so..

That question wasn't meant to come out that way but somehow it just did. Now I am not making any Racism remark here but, all my bad taxi experience had to do with an Indian driver, there was once..if you refer back to my older entries, an Indian drver was tring to rip me off, making me pay 40++ bucks instead of 30. Then there was once with Brian, when we took taxi from Upper Queen back to his place at Emily Place. The rate meters read 4 dollars (it's kinda close, but we're kinda too stoned to walk), so Brian gave in 10 bucks. Apparently, the driver said that he dont have change and insist that we should just pay him 10. Now this isnt making any sense to me. I mean it's 4 bucks for christs sake and he made us pay 10. Fuck me, its his problem not having any change(which I seriously doubt) Brian got mad and grabbed the 10 dollars bill from him and said "fuck you, give me my change or you're not going to get any money". The taxi driver told us off and kept swearin. And I couldnt understand a word he said. Should be Indian. But anyway, there were a few times that I have had bad experiences with Indian drivers.

Then there is this huge discussions in studio, mostly between Soo and me and other Julian about Koreans. Soo is actually pretty open about the stuff, so it's alright to talk about that, which I wont go much into details thatd get me into trouble, but hey I mean, fuck the cultural diversity man.

and Helen Clark, oh your such a notti mama,
Id love to see you in your sexy messed up hair..
hmm............

Roar NZ, Roar NZ.

Roar Auckland, Roar Auckland,

I love ethics differences

I love people of all colours

I love you all


Screw me, stupid bumfuck Auckland,

Whatever.

Fuck me.

Interpol Interpol and Interpol

Turn up the volume because its all about Interpol on Beaker RadiO:)

and I have 2 additional songs,
one from the American Idol mama Kelly Clarkson singin with all her emotions in "Because of You" which is, of yours kinda like every-day-cliche love song, but I just thought I need a different dose..

The second one is from the movie "Crash" the end track called "Maybe Tomorrow" by Stereophonics.

Enjoy.

Untitled

They don't judge us from the language we speak, but,
They judge us from the way we speak.

They don't judge us from the way we dress, but
They judge us from our yellow skin, brown eyes and black hair.

They called us "the fucking Asians"

P.s. This is not addressed to anyone in particular and is neither a hate post.

S.N.A.F.U. stands for Situation Normal All Fucked Up

SNAFU, a termed initiated by LTL, used to describe architecture in a fucked up state.

For me, I am real fucked up. This has been draggin on for almost two months now. My sleeping schedule. Its all fucked up.

You see, I would go to bed earliest at 3 in the morning, then wake up, again earliest at 12 noon, and latest around 4 or 5 in the evening. And I hated it. I am a night person but I hated it when I dont get enough sun. It felt sick and I have been sick for almost two months.

I tried to consult with my counselor, mediator, or whatever you want to call it and it just didnt help. He gave me nothing constructive other than sharing his god dammed pity with me, "Hey, I am really sorry about what you are going through right now, I totally understand."

Fuck me.

Give me sleeping pills at least.

Oh how I love the morning sun...

INTERPOL >> Live @ ST James, August 2

Finally, finally got everthing I needed to post the Concert up >> Interpol Live in St. James, August 2.




Waited in line around 7:30pm. I was really nervous thoug, oh you guys have no idea how I felt. It's like I'm going to piss my pants. And yes, St. James door opened at 8 as promised. Geeting in to it, was hard. Tickets were checked 3 times. Pity to those without an ID. Then, we had to wait till 8:30 for the opening act, Demi Whores. It was an aweful opening act. It was aweful. I so wished I didnt see them. At that time, St James was reasonably crowded. The stalls are full but the mezzanine level was quite empty thoug. After the opening act, we had to wait again. Interpol came on around 9:30 one by one, with Paul arriving last, lights were low, cheers were loud.



They begun with Next Exit (first track from Antics), which the sound were low, so Paul gestured the stagehand to turn the sound up.

Here are the rundowns for Auckland show:

Next Exit
Slow Hands
Narc
Say Hello to the Angels
Length of Love
Public Perverts
Not Even Jail
Hands Away
Evil
Obstacle 1
Take You on a Cruise
PDA

Encore

Untitled
Obstacle 2
Roland

The Soundcheck were as follow
Length of Love
Specialist
The New
Obstacle 2
Next Exit
P.D.A

Concert ended around 11:07p.m.




Sam broke a durm stick while he was playin Not Even Jail, and Dan did took a bow before playin Untitled. Little did they said anything the entire night. Paul said "We're Interpol from New York" and the crowd cheers.

The highlights for me were Slow Hands, Hands Away, Obstacle 1, Untitled, Obstacle 2, and Roland. There were shouts from the crowd for Specialist, and Stella, but nop the didnt play. Biggest disappointment of the night, the did not play Specialist, which was one of my fav track. And I heard that they played A Time To Be So Small in Wellington show, which is one on my favs too but some how I think this was due to that they're really new to NZ and most NZ fans know them through Antics, so I reckon side tracks like Specialist will be unfamiliar to NZ fans.

WHATS REALLY AWESOME is that the band played well enough that quite often you would find it hard to distinguish the live performance from the recorded. Every song just flows so naturally.The band was just brilliant, bringing the classiness of New York to ST James, they looked great, and playin even greater. Worth mentioning is the lighting. Its awesome too. Whoever that did the lighting really knew Interpol. The lighting flows with the rythm so effordlessly that its just awesome awesome awesome!

All in one. The concert was just F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C. It's worth every penny going to the play. OH, it just take my breath away. I'm still so excited writing up this post.

Post-concert

I was proudly wearing Interpol's T-Shirt the next day down on Queen Street and several people approached me saying things like "Hey, thats an awesome gig aye" and "omg, are you there, its fuckin awesome aye". Even when I'm at Achitecture Library that cute librarian asked me if I went to the gig. It's just awesome. Its so much better going to the ball, I think.

Lost Season 2, Desperate Housewives Season 2

Good news, ABC just announced their Fall schedule
which, Lost season 2 will premier on September 21, and Desperate Housewives premiers September 25. They're all back!



Here are some ***Spoilers*** from one of Lost's writer.

At the convention, Grillo-Marxuach and his colleagues dangled a handful of clues to fans. "The plane did not crash by accident," Lindelof told the crowd. "It crashed for a very specific reason." But he dismissed speculation that someone aboard the plane caused the crash. "I will tell you today that is not the case."

He also promised, "Season 2 is gonna get weird" — though he and other writers promised the mysteries wouldn't drag on as long as "The X Files," which ran nine seasons.

Other tidbits:

What's inside the mysterious hatch will be interesting, but not as interesting as the effect it has on the John Locke character, according to Grillo-Marxuach.

The rear section of the plane — and additional survivors — will be discovered during the second season.

The people who kidnapped Walt, the young boy, are the "others" on the island.

Plane

"Plane"

Drain the veins in my head
Clean out the reds in my eyes to get by security lines
Dear x-ray machine
Pretend you don't know me so well
I wont tell if you lied
Cry, cause the droughts been brought up
Drinkin' cause you're lookin so good in your starbucks cup
I complain for the company that I keep
The windows for sleeping rearrange
And I'm nobody
Well who's laughin now

I'm leaving your town again
And I'm over the ground that you've been spinning
And I'm up in the air so baby hell yeah
Well I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Damn, I should be so lucky
Even only 24 hours under your touch
You know I need you so much
I cannot wait to call you
And tell you that I landed somewhere
And hand you a square of the airport
And walk you through the maze of the map
That im gazing at
Gracefully unnamed and feeling guilty for the luck
And the look that you gave me
You make me somebody
Ain't nobody knows me
Not even me can see it, yet I bet I'm

I'm leaving your town again love
But I'm over the quilt that you've spinning
And I'm up in the air, so baby hell yeah
Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

You keep me high minded
You get me high

Flax seeds, well they tear me open
And supposedly you can crawl right through me
Taste these teeth please
And undress me from these sweaters better hurry
Cause I'm keeping upward bound now
Oh maybe I'll build my house in your cloud
Here I'm tumbling for you
Stumbling through the work that I have to do
Don't mean to harm you

By leaving your town again love
But I'm over the ground that you've been spinning
But I'm up in the air, said baby hell yeah
Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
Well I'll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Who do you
Think you are, are, are, are
To keep me so oh cold, cold
You keep me high minded
You keep me high minded

You get me high minded
You get me high

Bus on Fire

BUS ON FIRE! Lol, So I was in Ponsonby yesterday with Mr. Beeee and Mr. Spuzz, and so about 6pm I was ready to go home, and when I got on the bus (I was the only one in the bus) and man it stinks in there, smells like some rubber burning, but of course I didnt care much since I'm only going to City. Then, while the bus was moving, I heard someone shouting from the car coming in the opposite direction. That doood said "Fire Bro, Fire Bro." It was rather loud. So the bus driver stopped the bus to check whats going on. And I got out of the bus too, and duh, the back, left tyre was in flame, and thick smoke too. The bus driver called the Fire Fighters and finally they put out the fire. Lucky I wasnt burned, I was just sitting right on top where the buring tyre was. Duh. I could've burn my poor little bum..

All that I ever wanted

It has been a lonnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggg longgggggggggg time since I wrote anything serious here. And I mean SERIOUS. Well yeah, not because there isnt anything happening that worth writing about, but because, probably I am trying not to think about it, which would make me sad. Life, I'm happy to say that it has been going rather smoothly these days, of course there are obstacles but compared to what happened to me first half of this year, things are much better, well not until today, something just gotta happen to make my day bad...I recieved a text from my sis. Content as usual, money matters. I was furious. Ive been here for 3 years and everytime I asked for money, there's questions. THERE IS ALWAYS A FUCKING QUESTION!
I am so sick of it. Perhaps they didnt realize the rate is rising and that they had to send more money to me even thoug I'm using that much. I'm just so sick of it...So I texted her back, I was angry.. I sounded angry. She txted back, she was angry yadda yadda. Fine I called her, I was yelling at her, just outside Academy Cinema. The Indian lady who happened to be there must think I am paranoid.

I surrender.

I cried.

I am just human, I need to eat, I need entertainment. I am not machine. I have feelings, I have needs. I just wished that people could actually look into this perspective rather than jumping into conclusions. I am sick of it. My sis said since I was young, I have always been mama's boy. I have everything that I wanted and that makes me an immature brat. IMMATURE. I dispice that word. I knew, I have everything that I wanted since I was young, all I had to do was ask. And because of that my sis and my bro thinks that I am a spoiled kid. But what they didn't know is that I knew what think of me, and I did everything to show them that I'm not spoilt... Ever since I could remember, I have always buried my problems inside, I have always hide my weekness for I knew if I let them out, they'll think I'm immature, that I cant handle things, and that I am spoilt. But tonigh, my sis said

"You think you are mature but sometimes you just dont talk like a mature person"

That got me. It hit me. I guess they didnt know how hard is it to be out here. My bro, went to Johor, and so thats it, I dont even want to talk about him. My sis went to Kuching, and I ended up in Auckland. Not my choice thou. I was sent here. Everthing happened so fast that I dont even have time to think, and there I was, sitting on a plane, to Auckland. I dont even know my aunt that I am going to live with for Christ's sake. Well anyway, all they think was I spend money, spend money and spend money. My results meant nothing to them. I got an A+ for design and fuck they even understand just how important that is. Yeah probably they knew that its hard out there. But they have no idea how hard it is. It'd be nice if they could come here and live my life and hell they'll understand and shut up.

And whats the most shitty part, that even your family dont trust you. Hah. Cool huh. I am sick of them always saying that "OH, we trust you, but........" Fuck IT. man I mean it. Save it for someone else. Just a few more months, when I get my degree I fucking earn my money and hell I dont need to listen to their buts.

The thought of never knowing
Would kill me just the same
The solitary blossom
Reminders of a friend

Gone somewhere
You've got nothing to live for
You're travelling broken
You just can't free yourself

An' all the words we've spoken
Are buried in the sand
The ruptured and the broken
The taste of bitter glass

What are you saying
It's just the thought of rejection
It's pulling you deep in
You just can't free yourself

Your voluntary loving
Apologies have passed
I'm coming 'round again
The fragments of a reason
The taste of bitter glass


Bitter Glass, Feeder, Pushing The Senses

Down

I am plannig a revolution..oh yeah.. check back soon..

INTERPOL LIVE IN AUCKLAND!

Wellington_05> Prelude

Waiting for Fanny and Rei in studio to take AIRBUS to airport to meet up with the rest of the gang. Yahoooooooo.. Flying to Welly again! I am so excited, so excited...hmmmmmm.......

The Da Vinci Code

Congratulate me, I flunked ES, first time of my life.

Great huh, flunked my Ens, AND Judy should go to hell to. Fucking old mutha fucker fat BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking hell. 100++Hours rendering only worth such grade. Fuck you. You can fuck back to where ever and do some liposuction before you decide to teach again. Fucking fat bitch. FARKKKKKKKKKKK

New Art Work

This is my new art work, wicked huh?

Burrr...

I'm still sucked up with gettin an A+. Gosh It feels better than multiple orgasm.

D5> The answer

Hello, My name is Nigel, and guess what I got a FUCKING A+
again! hahahaha. Dont get me wrong, I'm not an A+ snob, just let me dwell in this tempporarily happiness while I can. It's the 3rd A+ that I get, and I am truly, sincerely grateful for it. It's hard really, to be able to maintain on this position. You see, out of all D5, i'm one in the 6 people who got A+, not easy aye (Congratulations to Fanny too..) you see, Fanny and I were the only two from Mike&Mike's group that got A+. Not to be arrogant, but being the top 2 in the group feels GREAT! (Fann you feel me ???)

Here's the result, thanks to Fann, Rei, and Winnie for the very detailed summary.


YOU GUYS FEEL ME??

Right, it's not good to be so sucked up by the results aye.. I shouldnt be cuz it'll always be a stress for coming designs, but for now... i'm just too happy. But I wont let grade become a stress next time. Just shouldnt. See I've got A+ for 3 design, and say what, it means that I can design. and I fucking can nail it. so screw it. Im going to do something different. Watch out for me huh for I'll kick anyones ass. But yeah, it's the best reward that I could've ask for. I've put all my time, my energy and money for this design, and I think it's worth everything. And being rewarded an A+ is more than I could ask for.

To Fanny, all I can say is congratulations man! see you did better than whatever azza.. so it's not your problem in D4. and to Winnie, A.. your just one step closer,next semester A+ will be yours. Rei my dear, go extreme with your digital stuff. LOL :) At least, we're all A's..:)

So, the results out, lets just put a period to Design 5. Thanks to Mike and Mike, to everyone's support.

Feel's like I just got a lifetime achievement awards or something. LOL


My A+ Work.


Fanny's presenting her A+ work


Rei the digital freak, and her wicked presentation

Funny I didnt have a picture of Winnie's work.

Mean Shit!

Program: 3D Max, Mental Ray Caustics



Program: 3D Max, Mental Ray Caustics



Program: 3D Max, Mental Ray Caustics Volume Light

Beaker Works Studio

I've been experimenting with 3D Max 7's Mental Ray and its freakin cool!!!!!!!

Here are sometimg that i've done over the past few days..





Does anyone wanna pay me for some wicked renderings??

2005 First Semester Sum Up > Sometimes, We Do Take a Break..

My birthday dinner @ Wagamama


Studio..


The Black Incident
(Dont get me wrong, I have nothing against black people, just some crazy stunts between me and Sajeev)


Crit Aftermath, me lyind dead in the studio, right after Design Hand in (Look at the mess....duh.. its the same every semester)